Reflection – Mirjana’s Annual Apparition

Tomorrow, March 18, Medjugorje visionary Mirjana Soldo will be receiving her annual apparition of the Blessed Virgin Mary. This particular date is one Our Lady promised her on the final day of her daily apparitions on Christmas Day in 1982.mirjana

Beforehand, Mirjana had been seeing Our Lady every day for 18 months, but those daily apparitions came to an end on Christmas Day. Imagine seeing the Mother of God every day for almost 2 years, and then it all coming to an abrupt end?

In her book, My Heart Will Triumph, Mirjana shares this experience with us:

On December 23, 1982, Our Lady appeared to me as usual, and, like always, it was a beautiful experience that filled my soul with joy. But towards the end, she looked at me with tenderness and said, “On Christmas Day, I will appear to you for the last time.”

The apparition ended and I was left stunned. I had clearly heard what she said, but I could not believe it. How could I live without apparitions? It seemed impossible and I prayed immediately for it not to be true. 

The next day, on Christmas Eve, she again tried to prepare me, but I still could not comprehend it. I spent most of the night begging God to give me more time with her. 

While my parents and brother celebrated Christmas day with singing, prayers, and food, I was far too consumed with worry to join in. There I was, surrounded by my loving family, about to spend Christmas with the same woman who gave birth to Jesus two thousand years ago, and I could not even smile.

My anticipation soared as the time of the apparition approached. My mother, father, and brother, wearing their finest Christmas attire, kneeled beside me. We prayed the rosary in preparation for her coming. When Our Lady finally appeared, she smiled gently and greeted me in her usual motherly way. I was captivated; her dress radiated the same spectacular golden color it had the previous Christmas, and in that moment—with all her grace and beauty shining down on me—it was impossible to be sad anymore.

My parents told me later that my final daily apparition lasted for an extraordinary 45 minutes. Our Lady and I talked about many things. We summarized our entire 18 months together—everything we had said to each other and everything she had revealed to me. She entrusted me with the tenth and final secret, and she explained that I will need to choose a priest for a special role. Ten days before the date of the event foretold in the first secret, I am to tell him what will happen and when. He and I are then supposed to pray and fast for seven days, and, three days before the event, the priest will reveal it to the world. All ten secrets will be revealed in this way.

Our Lady gave me a precious gift. She told me that she would appear to me once a year, on March 18, for the rest of my life. March 18 is my birthday, but Our Lady did not choose that date for that reason. For her, my birthday is no different from anyone else’s. Only when the things contained in the secrets start to happen will the world understand why she chose the 18th of March. She also said that I would experience some additional apparitions. 

She then held out something like a rolled-up scroll, explaining that all ten secrets were written on it, and that I should show it to the priest I choose when the time comes to reveal them. I took it from her hand without looking at it.

“Now you will have to turn to God in faith like any other person,” she said. “Mirjana, I have chosen you; I have confided in you everything that is essential. I have also shown you many terrible things. You must now bear it all with courage. Think of me and think of the tears I must shed for that. You must remain brave. You have quickly grasped the messages. You must also understand now that I have to go away. Be courageous.”

She promised to always be near me and to help me in my most difficult situations, but the pain I felt in my soul was nearly unbearable. Our Lady was aware of my torment and she asked me to pray. I recited the prayer that I often prayed when I was alone with her—the Salve Regina.

[…] She smiled in the most motherly way, and then she was gone.

(Mirjana Soldo, My Heart Will Triumph, p. 135-137)

Mirjana suffered much after the loss of her daily apparitions, but she was brave and has continued to follow Our Lady to this day.medjugorje-1

I can remember the first time watching one of Mirjana’s apparitions years ago via MaryTV’s lifestream. It was around the time I first started learning about the story of Our Lady of Medjugorje, long before I started this blog. I remember looking at her expressions and mannerisms, both during the apparition as well as the moments after and preceding it. I remember thinking to myself how much she probably suffers since she is tasked with carrying the ten secrets; not to mention the pains and struggles of once living under communism. And because of that, I then assumed her personality was quite serious and quiet. But as I got the chance to actually hear her testimonies from talks and her book, her lovely personality really shined, and you could see the joy of loving the Lord in her.

I definitely recommend her book to anyone who is curious about the story of Medjugorje as it gives a candid glimpse of the life of a visionary. It’s a wonderful book!

On Wednesday I decided to re-read last year’s March 18 message as a way to kind of prep myself for the new message tomorrow, and refresh my memory and spirit. It’s a beautiful and loving message, and one that still speaks to our times. I’ve decided to share it here today. May the Holy Spirit help prepare our hearts to receive the Blessed Mother’s new message!

“Dear children! My motherly desire is for your hearts to be filled with peace, and for your souls to be pure so that in the presence of my Son you could see His face. Because, my children, as a mother I know that you thirst for consolation, hope and protection.

You, my children, consciously and unconsciously are seeking my Son. I also, as I passed the time on earth, rejoiced, suffered and patiently endured pains, until my Son, in all His glory, removed them. And that is why I am saying to my Son: help them always.

You, my children, with true love, illuminate the darkness of selfishness which all the more envelopes my children. Be generous. May both your hands and heart always be open.

Do not be afraid. Abandon yourselves to my Son with trust and hope. As you look towards Him, live life with love. To love means to give oneself, to endure, and never to judge. To love means to live the words of my Son.

My children, as a mother I am speaking to you: only true love leads to eternal happiness. Thank you.” (March 18, 2017)

P.S. – Happy St. Patrick’s day, everybody!

As I arise today,
may the strength of God pilot me,
the power of God uphold me,
the wisdom of God guide me.
May the eye of God look before me,
the ear of God hear me,
the word of God speak for me.
May the hand of God protect me,
the way of God lie before me,
the shield of God defend me,
the host of God save me.
May Christ shield me today.
Christ with me, Christ before me,
Christ behind me,
Christ in me, Christ beneath me,
Christ above me,
Christ on my right, Christ on my left,
Christ when I lie down, Christ when I sit,
Christ when I stand,
Christ in the heart of everyone who thinks of me,
Christ in the mouth of everyone who speaks of me,
Christ in every eye that sees me,
Christ in every ear that hears me.

Saint Patrick, pray for us!